Footprints

These are my footprints,

so perfect and so small.

These tiny footprints,

never touched the ground at all.

Not one tiny footprint,

for now i have wings.

These tiny footprints ,

were ment for other things.

You will hear my footprints,

in the patter of the rain.

Gentle drops like angel's tears,

of joy and not from pain.

You will see my tiny footprints,

in each butterflies' lazy dance.

I'll let you know im with you ,

if you just give me the chance.

You will see my tiny footprints,

in the rustle of the leaves.

I will whisper names into the wind,

and call each one that grieves.

Most of all these tiny footprints ,

are found on mommy and daddy's heart.

Cause even though im gone now,

We'll never truly part.

Rollercoaster

There are days that i feel like i am on top of the world. I feel like things are going great and dispite all my fears , i feel we will get though my health problems. Then there are days like today. Days where i feel like this rock that im under will never be pushed away and i will have to live forever with this hurting inside. I go through these ups and downs like a rollercoaster and wish the ups would out shine the bad. I have been having a hard time lately. Not because of the loss of our baby , but the fear that ill never be able to make him a dad. Im not supposed to have these feelings. Im young and there should be no issues with me, but life isnt fair and i do have problems, problems that seem like will never have a solution.