Rollercoaster

There are days that i feel like i am on top of the world. I feel like things are going great and dispite all my fears , i feel we will get though my health problems. Then there are days like today. Days where i feel like this rock that im under will never be pushed away and i will have to live forever with this hurting inside. I go through these ups and downs like a rollercoaster and wish the ups would out shine the bad. I have been having a hard time lately. Not because of the loss of our baby , but the fear that ill never be able to make him a dad. Im not supposed to have these feelings. Im young and there should be no issues with me, but life isnt fair and i do have problems, problems that seem like will never have a solution.