There it was , with proof in hand

As i held that test in my hand , 3 min felt like hours. I looked down and saw what i never thought i would see and there it was .. A possitive test. I sent a picture to Will and we were both happy. Days went by and i started feeling good and even though the test said positive i didnt feel pregnant. I went to the dr to do a blood test and sure enough , they said congrats your pregnant. What a blessing i thought. How lucky we were that against the drs ruling that we were going to have a baby. I got a call later that day and they were worried about my progestrone levels and that they wanted me to come in the next morning and do more blood work to check. I went in the next day , did blood like i had many times before and waited for the call to say everything was ok. I never got that call. I Instead got the call to say my levels were so low and that i was in the process of losing what i dreamed of my whole life. Days past and nothing happened. Maybe my baby is ok now, maybe they were wrong. I was sitting at home alone while my love was at work and i got this sharp pain in my stomache and thought i was about to get sick. I ran to the bathroom and realized that what was going on , and began to cry. I sat there for about 30 min before i got up to look , afaird of what i would find. I got up and saw what i wouldnt wish on anyone , i saw our baby. What was i to do now?Can someone just flush their baby down the toilet? i broke down and lost all hope of ever becoming a mom, and what would i tell will? What would he think of me not being able to make him a dad. I thought i was less of a women cause of this.